This is basically about the people I know and love//hate.

Basically.

I want you so bad. If only your girlfriend fucked you over. She will and it will kill me to see you hurt but she's not right for you, she's too childish and I can see it in your eyes she annoys you and you're disappointed with her. Especially when she's drunk, but I know you love her. And I am so sorry.

I know you want him, he doesn't want you back. Haven't you realised that he only wants you when he's drunk. You're my best friend and

You're an amazing, beautiful, kind person and I hope I am mates with you for a very long time.

You're not the person you used to be, you're dull now.

I miss you so much, I miss who we used to be, I miss those times we didn't need anyone but each other to be happy. I miss walking the dog and chatting shit. I miss your house, your mood swings, your family and our hair dye sessions. I know we could never be as close as we were, but to me, you'll always be my "old" best friend. I love you. Even though you hurt me so bad. Nearly to the point of suicide, I can't help but forgive you.

Your mood swings don't only piss me off, but everyone else too. If you're going to be our mate, at least be happy once in a while.

I miss the summer I spent with you, but you've changed and I can't stand the person you've become.

Well you need to stop the weed mate...

It's been a year and it still hasn't sunk in.
I hope you're in no more pain, and your soul is complete.

I'm sorry I couldn't go to your service at the school, I just didn't feel it right.

I hope you weren't in pain before you left us, but only the best go. You were an amazing boy with a beautiful soul and I miss you so much, words cannot express how much it hurt everyone for you to go.

I love you man, I just wish I could have told you when I had the chance.

xDeex
xxxxx

Is that no one ever is completely honest with me.
That you can fit more than one person can sleep in a single bed. If you really like them.
I really do hate myself.
I have absolutely no self-esteem.
That some people no matter how much they're wanted they still refuse to be loved.
That people on BB are so stupid.
No one actually accepts me for who I am.
He doesn't like me.
Love is not a fairytale life like up on the screen.
I need someone.
I actually miss my dad so much.
That my best friend really hurt me last year.
I think very seriously about making myself sick sometimes if I feel guilty.
That I want to starve myself sometimes just to get rid of this ME.
I need serious help.

xDeex

I've been on holiday all last week..
Woolacombe Bay holiday parks..Comin' atcha.
I've been there a couple of times and this time I went with my family and my mum's sister, her husband and my two cousins, whom I shared a caravan with. NO problem there..

The problem is.. What's the fascination with following a few boys round an arcade? And dressing up like tarts everynight? They didn't even get a shag or anything else out of it.
They weren't even good looking. AND I DIDN'T WIN BINGO!
ARGH!
The weather was completely shit also. all rainy and windy. and it was missions to the shower block and the toilet block was RANK! Shit and piss everywhere. Minging.

Anyway..
I'm trying to download 'We're in the Music Biz' at the moment. Taking fucking ages. The Tears vid came out today. I haven't seen it yet tho. Pain in the ass.

I've run out of words tonight.

Byezz

xDeex

1.I hate people spelling my actual name wrong, Dee's not a hard one to spell.
2. I hate it when people take photo's of me when I am not expecting it.
3. I have many gay mates and homophobes really fuck me off.
4. I take a very long time to get my hair the way I want.
5. I change my style so much.
6. I used to have a scary obsession with MCR
7. I get annoyed really easily.
8. I hate people touching my hair. It;s mine, leave it alone.
9. I keep myself to myself.
10. I keep my opinions to myself unless you hurt me then I blurt them out purposely to hurt you.
11. I hate college with a passion.
12. I don't drink.
13. I have a strange attraction to Spider from the Mighty Boosh
14. I am very sly if you've annoyed me. I will make it look like I like you then drop the bomb.
15. I don't like arrogant people that think they are famous when they're not.
16. I hate borrowing people's clothes and people borrowing mine.
17. I do a lot of art that no one in my friend group knows I do.
18. I wish I didn't have to move house again this year
19. I can't sleep until after 2AM
20. I love ancient Egypt stuff.
21. I hate fights unless I am participating in one.
22. I take a lot of time choosing what I wear.
23. I wish there was a TopShop and a Primark near here.
24. I was taught to walk again after I broke my leg.
25. I talk bollocks.
26. I wish I wasn't so rubbish.
27. I hate chavs so much.
28. I do accents quite well.
29. I don't understand vegetarians and vegans.
30. I would love some new cowboy boots please. *hint hint*
31. I would love to have my own TV show.
32. I love almost EVERY BBC Comedy show.
33. I would love to sing in an electro band
34. I used to want Hayley William's hair.
35. I LOVE being British.
36. I want to live in London.
37. I have a strange sense of humour. It's silly.
38. Youtube is my favourite website.
39. I change the way I talk, I can sound posh/common or have a slight cockney accent.
40. I used to collect band t-shirts.
41. I was once up all night till 5:30AM playing Sims.
42. I dye my hair all the time and am amazed at how fast it grows.
43. I always talk about things that interest me at the time.
44. I have already been evicted from my house.
45. I like animal print blankets.
46. I love decorating and can't wait to do my new room.
47. I am interested with the Supernatural
48. I have my tarot cards read occasionally.
49. I cry at silly things.
50. I hate being hurt and if anyone makes a remark about what I look like I cry.
51. I hate not having the internet.
52. My school recomended to my mum I needed therapy.
53. I have some scars I'm not proud of.
54. I hate myself a lot of the time.
55. I love the colour of my eyes.
56. I need a job.
57. I am apparently going to college.
58. I live in skinny jeans.
59. If someone says I'm fat, I feel a failure.
60. I need some confidence in myself.
61. I like cleaning anyone elses house except my own.
62. I like it when I can sit and sing to myself.
63. I hate running out of shampoo and conditioner.
64. I don't speak much if I meet new people.
65. I can hold a grudge for a very long time.
66. I need therapy.
67. I like dressing up like something from the 80's.
68. I think Russell Brand is very hot.
69. I still haven't managed to read his book.
70. I would love to go to one of his shows.
71. I am very much into elecro and punk music. I think it's amazing.
72. I think Julian Barratt's funnier than Noel Fielding.
73. I still don't want to believe Noel is 35.
74. I like the word bollocks.
75. I think traditional jokes are boring.
76. I hate not having battery on my phone.
77. I hate having dirty hair.
78. I am really scared of deep//dark water
79. I hate bridges that look weak.
80. I had a panic attack because I though a rock was going to fall on me in Marle Hall.
81. I wish I could have an amazing nightlife.
82. I love The Mighty Boosh and am seeing the live show later this year.
83. I can't sleep with anything on my feet like socks.
84. I can't sleep in normal clothes, I have to wear pj's.
85. I'm a very shy person.
86. I need reassurance that my parents love me.
87. I like bright coloured trousers with a band t-shirt.
88. I like stripes and polka dots.
89. I think college is overrated around here.
90. I rarely have breakfash.
91. I hate people that can't speak in normal english.
92. I love ribena.
93. I get frustrated if people don't speak properly.
94. I can play the keyboard and have an awesome bass guiar.
95. I eat boiled egg and soldiers a lot.
96. I used to think Mikey Way's wife was amazing.
97. Mushrooms, onions and tomatoes make me feel sick.
98. I hate being stared at.
99. I love horses.
100. I can't stand not getting revenge on someone.

That's about it.
xDeex

I want to see Robots in Disguise and I can't because I'm on holiday.

That reminds me, I still have to sort everything out for it.
My cousin met the Blackout last night, what a cock. I reckon the Blackout are shit anyways.

I'm also wishing Noel Fielding from The Mighty Boosh a happy birthday for yesterday and all that. Hope he had a good one. (Y)

I'm going to see The Mighty Boosh in December, it's going to be awesome and that. I have to dress up apparently, but I always look like a 1980's throwback so I don't reckon I do.

Something that REALLY annoys me is people pretending to be drunk... What's the point in that? Actually get fucking drunk instead of acting like a complete prick and hurting everyone you see with spiteful remarks about what they look like, been there, been on the end of those harsh words, I tell you it's really not nice. I don't drink anymore cause of how violent I get, well I really wished I was drunk at that time cause I would have broken his face. Oh well, over and done with now, past and all that. I'll get over it.

"I'm hit... And you're it." Fucking love that song. Haha.

Well that's the rant bit over. I'm still thinking of doing a proper blog now. I'll do it tomorrow instead..

xDeex

So I have these friends...

They're dating, and have been on and off for about 2 years. Recently he's not been letting her come and see her friends and they've become like hermits, he wont let her drink or smoke anymore unless he's with her watching every move she makes.
Recently I have been told that he's been hitting her and I have been told that he's hit her before and bruised her. And cause I was her best friend he's tried to hit me too, but I wouldn;t let him hurt me the way he does her. Even though he has reduced me to tears a couple of times. He has even pinned her by her neck to a wall cause she wanted to come and meet me for a chat. Now I never see her anymore and really would like to with out him being there cause I sometimes fear for her safety and stuff, he's vile and horrible but she wont see that cause she's so 'in love' with him.

Could anyone be able to give any advice on how I would be able to get the message through to her without her actually being beaten black and blue?

xDeex